en-tropy

I feel trapped; bound at the wrists by his affection,suffocated by his gaze. His fingers outline my body, waist to hips to thighs. I gasp, because letters don't connect into words. His shadow is sorrow on the wall. He borrows my thoughts without asking. I am infected,inebriated, illogical, and insane. In fear my heart fills with empty static, I feel I will be doomed to buzz internally indefinately. I break down every blossom of love, and I cry when I see it all warped beneath my feet. My blood pumps but I think my veins are hollow, everything is cold. I want to hold you, but my chest is vibrating, and I can't bear to shock you.

I try to forget you by closing my eyes, but you appear on the inside of my lids too. I try to forgive you by replaying and reacting in my mind but after hours of doing so I realize this isnt the right way. but what does that matter? when has it ever been the right way? I want to shake your shoulders, digging my nails into your skin. I want to force sense into you, engrain it in your mind that to me is void of truth. a lack of sensors accepting information, relaying out pain instead of answers. I am disgusted; left tasting disbelief and blood, walking alone in the dark. the farther I run the more you chase me and on one hand I want to turn ar

dry lips, hands decay jutting out hips, things once held now gone astray feeling bruised kidneys and bony spines doing k in bumps and blow in lines lies revealed, carrying a stronger shield eyes furious, breath short, heart beating abnormally liquor to lose consiousness, alone, looking at you in a bar ribs visible, a burn on her left shoulder, a scar on her chest fragile fingers touch the earth, searching for belief the chains are truth, we were bound, but it was easy for you to break free lost in some sort of hell, floundering in surrounding silence